Will be updates soon!!today totally tired and no mood!!

one -day awana trip!! 21.09.2009

TODAY my family and my sister (laypei) bf ,his cousin ,and his brother went to awana kijal ..we reach there ABOUT 10++A.M.so we go to the awana restaurant to take our breakfast..when we saw the menu..i get shock..the price of a set of breakfast about RM20++ so expensive for me lar...i m not a rich people..but we already hungry99 so we force to order the food also..after tat we went to swim ...i play v my little sister(layying &layxuan)i will update their picture soon...they was so happy!!^^
About 3++pm lke tat ,we decided to play banana boat!!after we paid all the money then we start pLy..SO SCARY....unfortunately MY LEG get bite by jelly fish!!!so pain!!!!!the malay helped me to find coconut to wash my leg...but my leg still feel pain now!!argh...After tat..we checked out and back to kuala terengganu...although we are tired enugh today but we have a nice day at there!!yeah!!

holiday now

wow,long time din't update my blog..school holiday now..so for sure i become fatter and fatter!!!omg...everyday not sleep then online play game,then eat..every day doing the same thing!!i decided wan use tis holiday to improve my math,add math de....WTF!!haiz..i really duno need to start from where..someone pls teach me...pls..argh!!erm..tis few day ,my bibi went to kl...wah...he went kl again...i so scare tat time...scare him do wrong thing again!!luckily he no!!he promise me wont do wrong thing anymore..hope he really do wad he had promise me loo^^just a short update here..^^ wish u all have a good holiday and drink more water< H1NI> GO AWAY!!!!!!muackss^6

TROUBLEMAKER!!!!!!!!!!!

Troublemaker troublemaker troublemaker!!!can u go back to ur world and pls dun come disturb us anymore!ya...i saying u IKKIJUNE!!!u R a TROUBLEMAKER!!!u come kt for wad???just come a few day can make so many problem!!i feel sorry to u when i 1st time saw u,but i wrong!TOTALLY WRONG!!i not suppose to pity u since u not a good girl!!wtf!!i really never c a girl like u..so fake!!haha!!hey!!to back urself girl!but mayb tis just ur lifestyle..the best actor!!以退为进..haha...really enough fake...come c my blog pls...tis i write for u!or mayb u no nid to c it ur 'supporter' also go tell u la...i think no nid i list down their names la...they sure know de..i tell u,dun try to touch my friend..wah!!i write u till tat ,later u 'supporter'dulan ar!!scare ar!!T.T
faster go tell ur 'supporter' la..say u no...u not a girl like tat..just i simply say oni...wtf girl..u better don do wad fake thing anymore...geli u know??haiz...wad a fake girl...

绝望！！！

为甚么要糟蹋我对你的爱？为甚么又让我一次次失望？你已经伤我很深很深了。我的心已经伤痕累累了，没有地方可以在受伤了。。你不是答应过我你不会再伤害我吗？？为什么你总是骗我？为什么昨晚让我看到那一幕?我宁愿什么都没有看到，至少我不会再受伤了。。我刚刚对你有了一点信任可是结果又是让我失望的。不要再为昨天的事找借口了，如果你和她心里有在意，重视过我，你们不会做那些会让我不开心的事。。不要说你没有想到事情会发展到这样的地步，不要一句不懂就把责任推得一干二净。。不要怕别人生你的气，先想想为什么别人要生气！我不懂接下来的路是怎样的，我做不了决定。。把一些交给上天决定吧。。我不再相信爱情了，我也只想找一个真心爱我的人而已，爱人太辛苦了。。我不敢了。。

是时候放弃了吗？放弃我和你半年多的感情。。或许半年的感情比不了你和她的感情。。现在的你开心吗？有比和她再一起的时候开心吗？这是我常常问你的问题。。我怕，真的很怕，怕现在的你是假的。。我变的更没有自信了！这几天，我很开心，我终于发自内心的笑了，我感觉到，朋友也感觉到了！我以为噩梦结束了，可是我错了。刚看了她的部落格，他和她的约定？我不知道，不知道他们之间的事情。我很想懂，可是我知道我没有权力知道。。我想我应该算了吧，明明自己没有那么大方。又假装大方。。现在连自己都看不起自己！哈哈！可悲吧！我对他的爱根本不能和她比较，她会尊重他，重视他，甚至为他付出所有！这些是他想要的，我给不到的！！我很想自私，不去理会其他人的感受，可是我做不到！我不想他的心会动摇了，我再也承受不起了，让他找回他和她的感情，或许是最好的！我也会努力的^^

没有得到祝福的恋情，会长久，会幸福吗？
受过伤的心，还敢再爱了吗？
伤害过自己的人，还可以再相信吗？