I m who i m!!

okay..i should want to tell you all how is a person are me! I am the one who talk very straight to all my friend~for me,hate is hate,like is like..it's really clear to know that!!i show my feeling through my face,my word,even my emotion!!I know some of them can't accept my style!!So what to do??i should change to the style you all like???impossibel!!i don't think the way i do are wrong!!so if you are not like me,please dun view my blog and don't even make a friend with me!!you'r not welcome!!!I really easy to believe on friend~i treat them with my full heart!!but they??i wonder why they like to play 心计 with their friend??I hate this jind of thing so so so much!!!!izzit this is call friendship??????Last time,one of my friend told me that,tis world no real friend~why should you want to take out your heart to treat your friend??you will get hurt in the end also,worth??I not agree what tis friend told me...I still believe on my friend!!even if the time all my friend lie on me but at least i still believe that my best friend CAROL LOK SEOK CHIN wont treat me that!!!so i appreciate her so much!!!really...I hope ,really hope that our friendship wont end till the day we die!!!can??

At here,i want to tell all of you,if you feel that where the thing i make wrong,please please tell me and dun keep inside ur heart..i really welcome to hear all the comment and try my best to change to the best!!!thanks!!!

29 july 2010 4.19p.m

Skip school today and went to the library study for the coming trial exam~actually no mood to study~keep playing and playing~T.T tired!!! just reached my sweet home and i have a BM tuition later~4.30p.m...really lazy to go lar!!!!all of my friend n0t going to tuition today,but me??erm... still thinking lar!!!>.

I was waited for his message last nite...I'm so happy when i received his msg!!!!really...but..why i was so happy??Do i care him???NOP la!!!i dun wish it!!!!trying to put down the feeling to him ...i really scare to get hurt again...it's really really pain!!my life fulfill with friendship and family~~i enjoy my single life now!!!i want single life and dun want to fall in love with any guy~so pls dun come on me 1st~^^haha

congratulation~~^^

Congraz to my group member (li,zhuang,yee) WE get naib johan in the music fest~~hahaha..actuallyi felt that we are not really perform well in our song!!we are too panic and the mic are sososososo cheap~so ,we not expected to get a number in the end!!BUT

we get number 2 in the end!!!...Group yang mendapat naib johan ialah LEE SIET LI,LEE LAY YAN,LEONG MING ZHUANG,dan CHAI KIAN YEE!!!!We are shocked that time!!!this is the 1st reward in our competition~yeah!!!

I really like my performance in the duet~~i really enjoyed with it!!!THanks A LAO!!!although we no get any place ~~but i sure that all of them are really enjoyed our performance~right??we are the best in my heart!!!!

although qing them lose in the group..but they are really perform well well well in the competition!!You all are the best!!!our family member support you99!!haha~~love you all all the time^^

I really want to thanks all my friend for the support ya!!i really appreciate it la..so touchT.T

the banned i sure will keep it nicely^^It's really really nice!!!!Anyway,i just want to say that So glad to meet you all^^ thanks and thanks and thanks....................................muacksss..love you all sosososososo much^^

add oil^^

TOMORRO!!!!26july 2010~~oh...tomorro will be the singing competition ~~i had take part in duet (a lao and me)制造浪漫and group(li,zhuang,yee and me)~~ 再见北极雪

so scare so scare so scare so scare so scare!!how ??T.T i hope i can really perform well in front of 300 hundred people in front of the stage~~~add oil to miss carol,kok hao,annie,and my partner chee huey~~support you all always...dun forget the aim we take part in this competition ya...just want be fun^^lose or win not a important thing to us~~The important thing is ENJOY,right???^^yeah...jiayou...

I going to be alone=(

Well..from now on...i going to be alone...my second sister is back to kl for her studies ~she came back 3 months for her holiday~In this 3 months...it really happened many many thing to my house ~~ this changed really made our life different~and i know i need to used it on!!As a sister,i need to take care of my two little sister,my parents are busy for their business and they are lack of time to really look after them~~i know this is my 'job' as a sister...i just hope i can do my best lar~~Should be more mature after this!!><
I going to sleep alone after this!!!Argh!!i never sleep alone in the night since i was small...but now i have to do that...how?how ??how??T.T i miss the time when four of our sister sleep together in a small room...it's really warm~~We talked our secret together,cry together,even we quarrel together ....it really a sweet time~but now no more...we are hard to be together like last time....can the time turn back to that time???pls~~
nothing more to write here..going to sleep alone today~~Tonight will be a good night??i hope it will^^good night!!

=(

这个秘密，藏在心里很久了~~没有人知道为什么我一直这样做的原因。。。别人误会我，就连你也误会我了！我无话可说~我答应了她。。。答应他永远都不会说出来。。。怎么办了？？我还可以做些什么？？？

Okay...before i post tis video..i should say sorry to miss carol.hwee ting and siet li...haha...i had promise you all not to post this video at facebook so i post at here=)dun scold me...^^this dance is create from me^^

happy birthday to my sweety ting~~

21july!!happy birthday to you,ting!!!^^


We went to celebrate ting birthday just now!!After school,we went to miss carol's house for taking bath at first..Today,siet li drove her mummy's car out and be our driver for the whole day..haha..thanks ya siet li jie jie^^appreciate so much...after finished bathe...we decided to go secret recipe to had our lunch...Reached there almost 4.30p.m already...we are sososososo hungry la!!haha...we quickly order the food that we want to eat..haha..i ordered the grill mushroom chicken ~~nice^^

Our next destination is Batu burok beach...having a lot fun at there...


four of us~

birthday girl^^


tis cake draw by the birthday girl..nice,right??^^
okay la..nothing much to write anymore..is the time to sleep le..good night..and sweet dream to all my friend^^

21july 2010(wednesday)

Oh gosh!!i don know what happen to me actually at school today...Why my tears was drop that time??What happened right now???i confuse!!I try to dun think too much and cool down myself!!My friend asked me what happened to me,i totally cant answer it!!because i really shock!!!Emo??Should i always hi with you first all the time??and i just waiting for your respond???when your mood are better then you will reply me .but when your mood are down then???I dun want to do this kind of stupid thing anymore!!!!!!I hate myself when i doing this stupid thing!!!I dun wish to lost you!!!T.T
but i felt that our distance are become more far and far...what can i do??No one know i writing who now...because i never tell you all who r the one i keep talking about...I hope they will not simply guess who r the person~~pls~~~

what the meaning now???

We are stop sms since 4 days le~~~what mean is that???
you going to give up our friendship???
because her???
T.T

Tis post totally for you~

something we really hard to say it out infront you..so i choose to write at here..hope you can see it...you know what we angry for??not because you had bluff us...but we angry that why you still duno how to protect and love urself...'Friend' is actually what meaning for you??Can we know that??Just the person to accompany you when you'r free ?????You heard what we advised you before??You know how much we worry about you that night??We cant contact with you ~we dono where to find you....We worry how r you ???YOU kNOW THAT???? We phoned you for so many many times...but you got reply us????TOTALLY NOT!You still remember what you had told me that night??You told me that you r at home that time...BUT the truth is what????After know that ,how disappointed we are,you know???We keep thinking why ,why you want to bluff us...?Are you appreciate us???Are you???

我到底怎么了？？

Today our Miss carol came my house and fetch me go to tuition..The 1st time she drive car and also the 1st time i sit her car...erm...actually she already ok in driving le... so here..We want to say good bye to all the TaXi..we no need them amymore!!Hooray=)

Well...after the addition mathematics tuition...we went to The Chicken Rice shop and had our breakfast+lunch...We planned to go MIss carol house for the sing K sesion and prepare for the singing competition ^^i had take part in a group ~me,siet li,ming zhuang,and also kianyee....we had rush on time to choose song anymore..we do our best when practice just now~~Hope we can sing more good in the competition lo...God bless us=)We are form 5 student already^^we need more experience or can say is memory ....hehe

I think i'm facing some trouble in my life...i know i' m always stay good with him ...many of our friend think that we are fall in love with each other ..but~we are really friend!!!right??why when i knew that you sms with other girl and you 'MAY' fall in love with her ..My heart feel uncomfortable??why??i know i never fall in love with you but just act you as my super good friend!!!I dono why this feeling wil come disturb me!!!Can they go away?!!!=(What happen on me??haiz..

回想。。。

昨晚睡前看回以前的照片。。那无忧无虑的快乐时光。。笑了，回想起很多事。。有开心的，难过的。。时间回不去了，小时候，常常希望可以快快长大。。现在，却希望回到以前。。是我长大了吗？人越大，烦恼的事就越来越多。。常常自己一个人坐在房里。。发着呆。。。我知道我改变了很多很多。。很多事和物都改变了。。我也在这环境里，平衡了自己，找到新的自己...谢谢你让我知道原来我自己也可以过得很好很好。。。没有你的陪伴，反而让自己懂了更多，学的更多。。

I failed my JpJ AgaiN

well...i'm quite moody now..just now i went to take my JpJ test ...but I failed it again ~T.T
I'm tooooooooo panic le...woke up at 5 a.m today...cant sleep well actually~keep thinking this and that..I'm not confidence on myself at all...that's why i felt scare till i cant drive it well!!!you know what the wrong i made??I forget to put down my HAND BREK!!Ough!!when i know this my mood down....i knew that i going to fail again...Here ,i would like to thank the JPJ tester~Tuan wad wad Yusof...you are a good tester compare with that last time one!!^^You are quite patient on me...Thank you ya!^6^
OHya~i going to retake my JPJ test again...but when should i take the date??august or september??August i have to face my trial sPM exam~~but if september retake ,is it too late??Pls give me your opinion~kay??i really confuse lar...Hope i can pass my test as fast as possible la..i really dun want to go bitara again!!Pls~~

smile~

那些眼泪，我懂
我有一个朋友，她表面上永远是快乐的，但是我明白她其实有不为人知的悲哀，她也有落泪的时候，只是永远在心里，从她的文章里，我总是能读到她的那些伤口，她从不曾和谁说过，只是敲打着键盘，对自己或者是陌生人诉说着.......
她这样说：
有的人不爱，但是因为时间在一起 有的人明明相爱，但是因为时间而分开了。
有些人为爱情而活，但大多数人都为面包活。
女人18的目标身份证 ， 2 8岁的目标身份 ，3 8岁的目标身价。
第一次笑是因为你的出现，第一次哭是因为你的离开，第一次笑着哭是因为你我都很幸福。
原来以为依仗爱情就可以为所欲为，无论何时回首那扇门背后的幸福总在，却不知越是纯真的感情越不能亵渎。
有时候逃避不一定躲得过，面对不一定最难受，而孤单不一定快乐，得到的不一定能长久，失去的也不一定能再拥有，转身不一定最软弱。
当一个女子看天空的时候她并不想寻找什么，她只是寂寞。
能够说出的委屈便不算委屈，能够抢走的爱人便不算爱。
其实爱情本来并不复杂，来来去去三个字，不是我爱你，我恨你，便是算了吧，你好吗，对不起。
有时候晚上想想千条路，早上醒来走原路。
有些没忘记的就不要去忘记，真正的忘记是不需要努力的。
亲爱的，你的眼泪我懂，你的好我也明白，你要好好的，就算有时候会伤心难过，只要过去了就当没发生过，我相信你可以的，最起码我所认识你那个你可以办到，不要让我失望啊。在我们的人生中总会发生一些事情，也许是你上辈子得罪了老天，他给你挫折会多一点，你就当他老人家闹脾气，别和他一般见识，做好你自己，总有一天你会有自己的幸福。

be strong girl~

I know what her feeling...because i feel it before..it's really really pain...sweety~be strong and happy...i know it really hard to do..but promise me to try,kay??Time is a medicine for you and the one who same situation with this..I really dun want to see you like last time de me...We can't control what they did to us..We just can accept it ...CrY??Worth??They have their own memories in the short time...but we have too...And i believe that we will have a better memories !!!Right??^^

Take it easy la weih...this not a serious problem to us~this just a small small case...haha!!Gambateh!!!!I love you!!!we love you!!!angel love you too^^^muacksss