心情指數：極差
心情好差好差，很多問題都突然找上門，很多都不知道如何去解決，好痛苦，但是每天啊，都得裝的若無其事的和朋友們嘻嘻哈哈，就是不喜歡讓他們覺得我不開心，讓他們擔心，尤其是我愛的家人朋友～晚上才是發洩的時間？？好煩好煩！！他忘了我們的約定，他的心不在我這裡，我呢？？每天期待，期待他真的可以信守諾言，可是，結果都一樣—— 失望～！不喜歡這樣的感覺，不想喜歡你，你可以消失嗎？不要給我希望然後一聲不響的離開嗎？我根本受不起第二次的打擊了。。走開走開，統統給我走開！！愛情？我受不起～！我只需要親情和友情。。。
健康指數：極差
很多東西想不通，當然不用想睡好覺，最近每晚都失眠！！一躺在床上，腦袋瓜就不停的想，不停的動，健康也變得很差～！！剛剛一個人去騎腳踏車，流了一身汗，感覺好舒服，希望自己累一點，然後今晚就可以好好的入睡，什麼都不想，什麼都不理～！！
真的是時候該醒了，
從那場不屬於我的美夢裡醒來
我不願意，但沒辦法，那不是我的，更不屬於我的～
真的是時候該醒了，
從你眼神裡，我知道沒有我的容身之處，
看得很清楚，很明白
是自己不想把它看清楚，看明白而已
多麼希望自己可以真的笨到什麼都看不出
看不出你對他的心意，看不出你在乎他的眼神～
真的是時候該醒啦！
該醒啦，該醒啦，該醒啦！！！
振作點，開心點，向前出發吧
把不開心的丟掉，把那煩人的煩惱丟掉，
把開心的留下，把心情藏起來～
大考要到了啦～
不可以，不允許自己在這樣頹廢下去料！！
讀書讀書讀書！！！！
討厭那樣的感覺，不喜歡不喜歡不喜歡！明明很在乎，卻常常被 裝得不在呼
I'm back again....=) quite a time no updated my blog..recently busy with the stupid assignment....ECS sketch,lots of presentation ...busy life=no life....haha...Ohya, recently some misunderstanding happened around my friends...lots of unhappy thing happen and make all of us bo mood~!and i also don't know why I included with this..But,luckily I go and explain..and they understand me..=) some lesson I learned from this incident~! Try to not to do that after this=) so....dun worry...just say cheers.....haha......
Learn to ignore those thing I dun want to think about
Going back to my Uni life again
Damn bored la..
Have to face lot of assignment,presentation,mid-term
Hate It la...
Run to KL for a week~
seriously I feel that I'm tired~I mean mentally and physically
I need a better rest~That is what I need now
Recharge my energy and I know I will do better after this~
confidence=)Haha
so......Skipped my class~
sorry...=) I will do replacement after this la~~believe me XD
Don't really feel like going back ~
maybe I dun feel like want to face anyone
Herm....try to evade~evade everything
Good night=)
夜深了
Well...the time now is already 1.13a.m ~MIDNIGHT! And I just came back from outside for the celebration for my friend Esther 18 years old birthday....I get to know this cute girl through my friend Jane~They came from same hometown-butterworth..(I dono I spell it correct or not)XD ...The first impression I get from this girl is pretty,cute,and also simple...we always chit-chat ,gossip here and gossip there...kinda happy and relax when together with them..just this girl facing some love trouble and don know how to settle it down ~I have the experience before too~so I might the one who really know about what her feeling now~Many of her friend keep advised her to put down the worst relationship,just like the time my friends advised me~She can't do it as she don know how to live without him~she not even dare to think about break up or stop the relationship~because falling to deep,so it's hard to pull yourselves out from it...Jane even ask me to advised her too~But as I said,No one can help you,you the only one to help yourselves~I just can share my experience to you if you really want to releases yourselves in that relationship~I know you will wake up one day~forcing you to forget now also not the better way to you....Gambateh ,my dear friend~!Quite heart pain when seeing you getting hurt bcs of him~=(
Unconsciously, september end and now already october,how fast the time flies..
we went to KL during weekend~have a lot of fun with my bestie ~our plan that want to help ah lao to celebrate his birthday was S.U.C.C.E.S.S!He received the surprises when the neway's stuff brought the cake and come in our room...
Let the photo do the talk for today =)
Back to Kampar again for the new semester ~Semester 2 now =) really hope everything going smooth for this semester..Ohya~I received my semester 1 final exam result,god bless me~I passed In this semester,that mean I not going to retake those 5 subject anymore!!haha!!I pass! I pass!!that so surprised~I tot my math won't pass in this final ,but.....hehe.....mummy gave me rm 300 for reward..happy sia!thankiu^^
Semester 2 .....a lot of friends already not same class with me...that means I going to meet new friends...is it good or bad??depend on yourself ba~!I just hope that I will meet someone with the true heart~won't lie between us..can I??Hmmm...good luck for those who I know in this semester^^ Jia you~!
回来也有5 天了，还有2天就回去了=（ 无所事事的过我的生活，每天不是吃，煲戏 就是睡觉～生活轻松得不得了～！陪陪家人陪陪朋友！每天都不知道吃了多少餐，一直吃吃吃，吃饱就睡，现在啊肚子也跟我在进行抗议～今天跑厕所几趟了～！今晚就乖乖留在家咯 =）耳边播着杨宗玮最新的歌-那个男人- 歌词很有意思，加上他的声音～真的吸引到我了～很好听的一首歌，如果你还没听过，推荐你咯～开着冷气，把耳机塞进耳朵，静静一个人，好久好久没有这样做了，好喜欢这时候，享受着音乐，享受着宁静，把自己的心情写在这里～这是多么幸福的事啊～
我又回到我最舒服的地方啦～我-的-家 ！！！超开心～这次是自己一个人搭飞机回来的～独自在机场呆等了数小时～草草的在Oldtown 用过晚餐后，大姐的男朋友就回家去了。我到处逛逛，最后还是选择到starbucks 打发时间～买了一杯RM15的chocolate blended ~心痛到～～～选了一张空座坐下了～拿出我向Jane 借的一本小说就开始翻读了～那本小说的书名我很喜欢<<爱要报喜不报忧 The joy of love》著者是吴若权～这本书是个极短篇的小说，反应着现代人面对爱的种种难题～我也领悟了很多很多～那一次的恋爱，自己的确做了很多傻事，错事～回来后，很多朋友问了同样的问题～燕，有新的男朋友吗？这种问题都会出现在我们的谈话里～我也只好一次一次的解答了他们的疑问～=）我还是单身，如果我说我很享受单身的生活，那我就是骗你的，单身快三年了，我只能说我习惯一个人了，但我绝不会说我喜欢上孤单了～每次看见恋人们很甜蜜很幸福，自己都觉得好羡慕，好像自己也能找到一个他～但是，不懂是不是过于理性的问题，我从来不会因为孤单而乱交往~我不是要求高，我只是不想再像那场恋爱里伤害自己或对方～我一直再反省，我改变自己，只是要在下一个恋爱里的路走得更顺更远～我不会埋怨现在的生活，我领悟到知足常乐的真理～我希望你们也是～最近，某些事一直困扰着我，我不知道如何去解决，更不知道如何去帮她～老天，帮帮他们好吗？感觉好难受，但又不能像别人说出口～还有6 天就要回去了，回去开始我的SEM2，回去面对一些带着面具的人，总是防备，防备，再防备，我不知道她为什么那样对待我们，DELETE 我们的FACEBOOK，难道有必要做到这样吗？她有珍惜过我们的友谊吗？友谊早在你对我做出伤害我的事情时，全都破碎了，我也看开了，也知道那些朋友可以交，那些不能～或许应该谢谢你让我明白这道理，让我知道你的真面目，所以，算了吧～我只希望你不要再对你身边的朋友做出伤害他们的事，不然，你只会落到没有真心朋友的地步～做事不要太主动，冲动~这是我对你的劝告～听不听随你～你和我之间再也没有任何瓜葛了～！！好了，不写了，等我有空时再写吧～=）
Oh my god!!How I going to face my Final exam???NO mood to study at all!!AT ALL!!!!cham liao cham liao!!!this time really gg liao...what I'm doing now??blogging.facebooking,sleep?I can't iagine how i going to face my exam!!!!!!!!!!!I dun want resist!I dun want stay sem 4!!I dun want I dun want I dun want!!!!!
三个月过去啦。。就这样在大学的三个月过去了。。三个月说长不长，说短不短。。还记得刚刚来到这里时超级不适应。。每天都过得很辛苦～很想家。。那时，唯一想的就是快快过完三个月然后回家！今天~我可以回家了！回去见我的家人朋友～开心指数飘升到100！哈哈。。三个月里，真的让我成长不少～我开始不再依赖家人，自己也能照顾自己咯。。大家都说大学是半个社会。果然是真的～！人心难测啊～在这里，我见到的是许许多多的陌生面孔～大家都带着面具做人。。真真假假...很让人害怕...我也改变了，变得不在意了...不在意别人怎样说怎样讲.....朋友？太好笑了 ！朋友，我当你是朋友，你呢？把我放在心上吗？想想那天你是怎样对待我的？那天，我灰心了～也看清楚你..算了吧，也不想在解释，你利用朋友，两次了～！！忍无可忍了！×不要对号入座×所以说家人才是唯一能让我永远依靠的肩膀！当然我不是说全部朋友都一样，我也有知心的一帮朋友！我了解他们，真心的对待他们，当然他们也是！我很幸运～我找到了！找到了！哈哈！
Let's the photos do the talks for today..lalalalala
I fall sick again again and again~Fever,cough,flu and sore throat come to me together..wt* suffering now... sleep and sleep this weekend...I don know why I still feel tired after I slept for so many hours!Damn it!!
Let's talk about my life ..recently I feel that I changed a lot...I closed my heart and don let anyone go in..what happen har?out group??? Tomorrow is the mid-term test for basic english ...that mean I going to GG in this test again!OMG!!no mood to study at all after the mid term test!!Someone pls slap me!!!haha!
Miss my hometown so much la....Going back on this 27 august!excited!!Wait for me ya kay tee!!I got a lot of dates already!BTW..I know i still need to study for my final exam!!I will..I promise^^TaK sabar sabar want to go back and meet my lovely family members^^this is what I waiting for and make me feel happy^^tata la...
发生什么事了？？我竟然在意他说的每一句话了！！我怎么了？疯了吗？明知道没有结果的却傻傻的往前走！！清醒点～你要的不是这个他！不是不是不是！！伤过了，不能在受伤了！不能不能不能！我要清醒点！不要被这个错觉牵着走了!!
Pissed off pissed off pissed off!!!WTF!I'm so unlucky ~! ~Some of my assignment group mate doing nothing for the assignment~!!Pls la!YOu want go to semester 4 then you go yourself la!!Assignment mark is very important for me!Stupid!!!Pls be discipline,independent okay????!!!I not your who!I also very lazy to call you all passed up this and that!Say okok but what you had done for me???RUBBISH!!!If you guys dun want to do then kindly tell me,I can help you and say to our lovely tutor!!That Not a problem !!!THankYou!And I think I need to tell you guy that Don't try to challenge me ~!I will do anything if I really Behtahan with your style/attitude !!!This is my last warning to you !!Please be alert !!
I break my own record~eermhem..I din sleep for whole night !First time...we stay at lakeside and go Mcd at 4a.m just for their breakfast...How crazy am I!Maybe a lot of you guy tried this experience before~BUT...this is my first time~haha!!study study and study!!We really did it....we really STUDY there!!NO JOKE!hehe^^
Reached my hostel around 8am ..I tot I can have a good rest but I failed!Gastric killing me again!SH*T!I hate gastric!!Feel like vomit ~totally uncomfortable!Anyone help me???T.T I miss my home seriously!I still can remember that when I having gastric,there are sure got a lot of food waiting me to eat them~!My family are so worry about me...but here???no MORE!no ONE will prepare the food for me...How pity am I!But luckily I still have a nice housemate that willing to go da bao for me!NO more spicy food for me today!I know I need to really take care of my body before it become worst!!!
环境或许真的能让一个人改变。进入了大学后，感觉自己也变了，性格变了～以前疯疯癫癫的性格，现在好像都不见了～以前样样事都看得很重的我，现在竟然什么都不理了～以前很多话的我，现在也不多话了，以前那么在意别人对我的评论，现在竟然也不理了，是好事还是坏事？是什么改变了我？环境？我想也是。。脸上的笑容慢慢的消失了，不是心情不好，只是不想笑了～和朋友的话题越来越少了，不是不合了，而是不想多话了，人也变得奇奇怪怪，连自己都不懂自己要的是什么，可笑吗？每天忙得连睡觉的时间都没有，感觉压力压得我快喘不过气来～每天躲在这小小的房间里，四面墙壁，让我感觉很有压迫感～！我好想说我累了，真的真的累了，心累了。。好想躺进家人的怀抱里～让他们呵护我～可以吗？
JULY...Time flies...I been stay here around 1 month...How my life's going on here??Hmm...I'm enjoying my Uni life now...there are a lot of activities held in the campus...and I really enjoyed it well...What a wonderful and interesting life~!A lot of assignment already shoot to me....sociology,critical thinking,economic,basic english ...24 hours are totally not enough for me...some more ,there are still have a small test ...I done my 1st test in Utar!feel so nervous and stress...I hope the result will make me satisfied...PLs.! I hate my Panda eyes now~!It look ugly!!arghh..!!!
I met my KT friend last week...really enjoyed my time with them~!My dear carol,jiayi,annie,ah kit,lao 9,trishal,waihao~My hometown friend!~!So yeah, must have a next gathering someday soon!I'm waiting!~Oh ya...I want to thanks miss jia yi tat keep be my driver that two day~!Thanks a lot ya.. =)
Overspending in this month !!keep shopping shopping and shopping!!I need to control myself!!!this is what i promised to do =)Believe me la hor...
Lastly...I hope all my lovely blog reader good luck in this new month and all the best~!!stay tuned with me always...
I mind it!
I mind it!
I mind it!
I really really mind it!!!
But what can I do??what can I change to change your mind??
I mind your word!
I mind your action!
I mind your everything!!
But do you really know that ???=(
From my tittle above,if you are really intelligent enough..You should know maybe I having some trouble now...Actually what are the meaning of friend??The one you always stick together??or the one you would share your secret to??Erm~For me 'FRIEND' not means everything,but they have a quite important position in my mind...I'll treat them super good and I'll 100% believe them once I feel that they are my friend..but...I think I've to change my opinion~ maybe I've to change the way how I treat my friends to avoid get hurt???I dun really hope to do tat...but once you get your friends betray you will know my feeling well....quite hard to describe my feeling now...just feel disappointed with someone ...If you think that I am saying about you then you can go through with it...B.E.L.I.E.V.E ??I think now quite hard to believe someone so easy..I miss my secondary friends for so much...I love the way they interact with other..straight ,true, pure and true heart!!~That is what I want from a friend!!oH...I feel want to shout loudly now!!Feeling bad now!!I hate those who betray me!!I HATE it!! How can I survive in this cruel environment!!??Maybe I should change to be a cruel person to survive in the world???Moody now~!!!Grrrrr......................
I leaves my blog for 1 week ++...sorry to all my blog reader that always stay tunned with me~hehe..appreciate it!From my latest post..I promised that I will post what had happen when I going to KL~and yea... now am going to keep my promise~!!
Yes,I'm here for blogging again~hmm..decided to going KL later ALONE by train and this is my 1ST TIME !!how dare am I ,right?my parent and sister was so worry about me~but..I want to see them for so much,so I still choose to go back without anyone accompany me...Get my KTM tickets just now...Each ticket cost me RM20..Freaking expensive for me as a student~!!erm...actually got a bit feeling scare la...don know I can reach there safety ma...haha...*touch wood touch wood* two and half hours journey to there and come back again on sunday early in the morning....I hope I can really used to here when I come back here...I'm so free this week...Just have lecture class in this week and all the tutorial class will start from second week...I hope I can more busy than now....Ohya,I met some new friends too at here..they are Emily...erm..let me describe about her..she have a long hair and small body size..she came from Johor with nobody!!she is a english educate student..so,she just know to talk english but not chinese!!hehe...this is a hard job for me to communicate with her..as you all know my english poor like sh**..haha..but I also try my best ...I know I can improve my english as well...conclusion-she is a nice girl and I feel glad to meet her^^ another one is wan er~her name are so cute ,right~wan er mean small bowl in chinese!what can I say about her??erm..she local from Ipoh too...she also is a happy -go-luckly girl..and I think I should tell you guys..I found 2nd Tang Pui Mang here~haha...their behaviour are totally same....haha..like to joke and play around~!!
That all for my post today..I going to take my breakfast 1st~ciao....^^
Erm...thinking how to start my post now...what should I talk about??.......okay...I should start from 2 visitor came kampar to find us...and this two days...they brought me a lot of happiness....I feel so warm when they came to find me....There are so hard to find someone you know for very long time in this stranger place...Aww...so touch....Have a happy moment with them this two day...^^ Thankiu~~
Hello..am blogging again....eerm...live in Kampar almost 1 week .....If you ask me how are me here??fine there??I answer was absolutely No!!!Seriously~I homesick!!I miss all of them so much!I don know why I just can't be independent like chui but always missing them....I cried for so many times....you feel that i'm useless,right???I think so....but..my mind keep pop out their face...I MISS THE TIME WE TOGETHER!!
I tried my best to console myself ~but...I failed to do it!!I'm sorry...chui!!I knew that I brought a lot of trouble to you!!You know that I just don know how to keep my feeling inside my heart!!sorry...and thank you so much that you are the one who accompany me when I got some problem!THANK YOU ^^
Skype with my sister just now.....I know all of them are worrying about me....sorry,papa,mama,jie jie~!!!I just realize that how much they doted on me....I feel bless that I have a happy and sweet family!!Again..thank you!
I love you all for so much!!!
I told myself...
''Distance are not the point to separate our love...I know you all are always beside me and give me a lot of support ...well...I will be strong and start my new life in this stranger place !!I wont let you all dissapointed ....''
I LOVE ALL OF MY FAMILY
MEMBERS!!!
祝大家卫塞节快乐啦～！！好久好久没有用华语写blog 了，来看看我的华语有没有退步先～哈哈。。。so...我要从卫塞节游行那天讲起，举行游行的那天是星期五~chui chui 临时告诉我她不能陪我去游行了～所以剩下我和辉婷，我没有去参加过，所以当然一定要去的啦！！感谢辉婷陪我走完～感动到爆！
