haiz..alone at room again..no going out tonight...stay at room..ntg can do..miss of him..keep thinking wad he doing right now...erm...head got a bit blur blur...no hear from him 1day already!!haiz...damn miss him...my gastric??still got a bit bit pain..mayb tonight must sleep early a bit le..ntg special..just a short and bored post here..
i miss you! i miss you! i miss you!i dono why i will miss you so much..u just go 1 day only...still got 10 day nid to go~~~~~~`wad should i do??
習慣 也許有人會認為很多事情開始要一個人獨自去做時 就失去它的意義： 當習慣了兩個人一起吃飯 習慣了兩個人一起看書 習慣了兩個人一起工作 習慣了兩個人一起散步習慣了兩個人一起回家 習慣了兩個人一起聊天 習慣了兩個人一起商量事情 習慣了兩個人一起發呆 習慣了兩個人一起喝咖啡習慣了兩個人一起.......... 開始一個人的時候 很多快樂都不再了... 請珍惜你身邊所有 把握任何一個美麗的機會 失去了就不再了... 現在請你回想一下 你習慣的那個人，是不是讓你感覺很熟悉，就像家人一樣？ 這種感覺，不是那麼容易就可以擁有的，應該好好的珍惜。也許有天你失去了，才會明白這個人，在你的心理是佔了很大的位置。 好緣份是很神奇的東西，它只送給用心去經營的人。所以好好的對待你已經習慣的那個人吧!!!
求回来的感情，真的这样不被珍惜，不被重视吗？我应该后悔了吗？不听老人言，吃亏在眼前吗？？真的真的很想问问你？是你变了吗？？还是是我没有了解过你？？多久了你没有真正的看我一眼，听听我心底里真正的感受？？
真的一切都无所谓吗？真的能接受吗？？真的不在乎了吗？？自由，空间，朋友。。。要求的次数越来越多。。还有办法吗？感觉越来越陌生了~~他的爱可以再相信吗？？离得开他吗？？感觉怪怪的~~说不上是什么感觉。。时间可以倒回吗？如果可以，我不会再错了...
Bm exam for tomorro...got two paper.kertas 1 and kertas 2..i m full of stress now..i really not enough time to remember all the novel..
Wish all form 4 student do well it your exam...^^
how???what can i do now??god please help me lar...not enough time to study so many subject lar!!(but got time blogging at here and playing facebook game)lol...today called pei nee want go out study or not..then she suggess go to library...but library too many people today...so we decided to go qing house lor..before go there..i called qing to keep all the thing like her laptop!!hehe..Reached there about 1 p.m ..then i ate my lunch 1st before do our revision...
we started from chapter 3,Oh my god !!teacher taught the thing all already threw into rubbish bin doh>.< haiz...need to study again lo...Three of us start discuss..
After study for 4 hours..we felt tired..then pei nee and qing felt hungry again!!they cooked some food to eat then we start played around le...
long time din't updated my blog lo...actually nothing can write also,because every day doing the same thing...bored!haiz...i sick le...sore throat ,fever,cough,flu....suffering now...This few day the weather very bad..morning hot til like oven then afternoon rain so big...many people fall sick because of this reason.include me lor..^^Ohya..final exam is around the corner already...all my fried so stress..make me stress a bit also.a bit only la..For those who look down us,i will proof to you ,i'm not the bad and the loser!!maybe i not as clever as you..but i will try my best to win you...I WILL!!!>.< 25/10/2009 start exam till 11/10/2009(if i no make wrong la)whatever la..want to study lor...win them win them!!hehe^^
bye all...good night and take care..
姐佩生病了！！她被诊断出得了骨痛热症！！今天，妈妈带她到医院。。她真的很怕被留院！！
最终，她还是被留院了！！她被吊水。。我根本不明白那些医生护士是有没有经过训练的。。打了两次针，竟然抽不到血！想问问你们到底把病人当成白老鼠吗？？你们到底有没有同情心的？？没有就不要当医生！！
今天，我有两个补习，所以没有时间去看姐佩！！晚上打给她时，她告诉我她很寂寞。。很想回家！！我听了心很痛很痛。。不知不觉。。我哭了！！我真是个爱哭宝！！我告诉妈妈我不要去学校，可是她不给！！所以只好明天一放学，就去找他。。姐佩，一定要多喝水，病才会好快快的！！这几天就辛苦一点！！几天不可以回家就让你想念想念我！HEHE...god bless you ...muackss...
心情糟透了，很烦，很烦，很烦。。有谁能了解我的心情？？对于他的改变，我难以接受。。真的很难。。很难。。原来受过伤的心是真的不敢再爱了！痛过。。心真的那样的痛过。。对于他。。我无言以对。。因为要说的早已经说了。。感情来到这里，突然要的自由。。我无法接受。。傻傻的。。原来感情真的会随时间而改变的。。在他心里，我是个把他管的紧紧的女朋友。。什么
自由也没有。。我尝试过了，但他并没有遵守它的诺言。。他还是骗我了！他再次说不会再做错了，我能在相信吗？？我做不到。。谈这段感情真的好累好累。。不想再走下去了。。可是好爱好爱他。。我能怎么办？？
TODAY my family and my sister (laypei) bf ,his cousin ,and his brother went to awana kijal ..we reach there ABOUT 10++A.M.so we go to the awana restaurant to take our breakfast..when we saw the menu..i get shock..the price of a set of breakfast about RM20++ so expensive for me lar...i m not a rich people..but we already hungry99 so we force to order the food also..after tat we went to swim ...i play v my little sister(layying &layxuan)i will update their picture soon...they was so happy!!^^
About 3++pm lke tat ,we decided to play banana boat!!after we paid all the money then we start pLy..SO SCARY....unfortunately MY LEG get bite by jelly fish!!!so pain!!!!!the malay helped me to find coconut to wash my leg...but my leg still feel pain now!!argh...After tat..we checked out and back to kuala terengganu...although we are tired enugh today but we have a nice day at there!!yeah!!
wow,long time din't update my blog..school holiday now..so for sure i become fatter and fatter!!!omg...everyday not sleep then online play game,then eat..every day doing the same thing!!i decided wan use tis holiday to improve my math,add math de....WTF!!haiz..i really duno need to start from where..someone pls teach me...pls..argh!!erm..tis few day ,my bibi went to kl...wah...he went kl again...i so scare tat time...scare him do wrong thing again!!luckily he no!!he promise me wont do wrong thing anymore..hope he really do wad he had promise me loo^^just a short update here..^^ wish u all have a good holiday and drink more water< H1NI> GO AWAY!!!!!!muackss^6
Troublemaker troublemaker troublemaker!!!can u go back to ur world and pls dun come disturb us anymore!ya...i saying u IKKIJUNE!!!u R a TROUBLEMAKER!!!u come kt for wad???just come a few day can make so many problem!!i feel sorry to u when i 1st time saw u,but i wrong!TOTALLY WRONG!!i not suppose to pity u since u not a good girl!!wtf!!i really never c a girl like u..so fake!!haha!!hey!!to back urself girl!but mayb tis just ur lifestyle..the best actor!!以退为进..haha...really enough fake...come c my blog pls...tis i write for u!or mayb u no nid to c it ur 'supporter' also go tell u la...i think no nid i list down their names la...they sure know de..i tell u,dun try to touch my friend..wah!!i write u till tat ,later u 'supporter'dulan ar!!scare ar!!T.T
faster go tell ur 'supporter' la..say u no...u not a girl like tat..just i simply say oni...wtf girl..u better don do wad fake thing anymore...geli u know??haiz...wad a fake girl...
为甚么要糟蹋我对你的爱？为甚么又让我一次次失望？你已经伤我很深很深了。我的心已经伤痕累累了，没有地方可以在受伤了。。你不是答应过我你不会再伤害我吗？？为什么你总是骗我？为什么昨晚让我看到那一幕?我宁愿什么都没有看到，至少我不会再受伤了。。我刚刚对你有了一点信任可是结果又是让我失望的。不要再为昨天的事找借口了，如果你和她心里有在意，重视过我，你们不会做那些会让我不开心的事。。不要说你没有想到事情会发展到这样的地步，不要一句不懂就把责任推得一干二净。。不要怕别人生你的气，先想想为什么别人要生气！我不懂接下来的路是怎样的，我做不了决定。。把一些交给上天决定吧。。我不再相信爱情了，我也只想找一个真心爱我的人而已，爱人太辛苦了。。我不敢了。。
是时候放弃了吗？放弃我和你半年多的感情。。或许半年的感情比不了你和她的感情。。现在的你开心吗？有比和她再一起的时候开心吗？这是我常常问你的问题。。我怕，真的很怕，怕现在的你是假的。。我变的更没有自信了！这几天，我很开心，我终于发自内心的笑了，我感觉到，朋友也感觉到了！我以为噩梦结束了，可是我错了。刚看了她的部落格，他和她的约定？我不知道，不知道他们之间的事情。我很想懂，可是我知道我没有权力知道。。我想我应该算了吧，明明自己没有那么大方。又假装大方。。现在连自己都看不起自己！哈哈！可悲吧！我对他的爱根本不能和她比较，她会尊重他，重视他，甚至为他付出所有！这些是他想要的，我给不到的！！我很想自私，不去理会其他人的感受，可是我做不到！我不想他的心会动摇了，我再也承受不起了，让他找回他和她的感情，或许是最好的！我也会努力的^^
tis is really the end for us??i dono,no ppl know also..u had told me many many thing..u said wad u do is for my own good..(u say u chase the girl bcs of me also),so i told u break v her la if u said de all is the truth..u din answer me...u just said one day u will do it..one day???when???i duno..but i din ask u le..i know how i ask u ,u also wont give me a real answer,right??..so i give up...i really enjoy talking phone v u yesterday,the last call...tell u the truth,yesterday wad u told me i all believe..not i stupid but i just wan to prove to myself i din c wrong ppl...mayb tis just can make me feel not so suffer...haha...stupid,right???today morning qing msg me,i tell her wad my feeling in my heart,qing phone me after she c my msg,she told me tat her heart felt pain when c my msg,she also felt touch..felt wanna to cry tat time..haha...sha sha de la qing...i really can feel tat she know me much..really..
有人说，《当爱人变了心，一个眼神，一个小动作，你都应该能够了然於心，爱上一个靠不住的人，越清醒反而越痛苦，但是有些人往往为了顾全自己的面子，为了不让自己给人[不幸福]的印象，通常把所有的苦往肚子里吞，然而，如果当你的爱情患了[末期癌症]，勇敢地拔掉[呼吸管]，也许才是对爱情最后的景仰与尊重。。。
haha....i really stupid..i believe wad u said to me...EVERYTHING!!!i never think tat u will bluff me one day...really no...u wan me to wait for u...u said u don wan to hurt she..u said u will solve this problem in 3 days..u wan me to wait u..u said she too love u cant live without u,so u need to fnd a good way to tell her..u say u very suffer...haha..all u said de just a lie!!haha...i also dono y i will believe u...when i told u i know all the thing,u said all is bcs me...wah!!i never think u will give me tis answer...when i know all the thing,i so surprise,unbelieveble,disappointed ,sad!!!i dun understand y u will treat me tat!!thx someone tat wake me up from my dream(a stupid dream,think tat u wil come back),u could fall in love to other girl easily,y i cant?i cant image when we r in relationship ,wad u told me is true or nt...i knw mayb ur gf will come view my blog!!so wad?scare she know all the thing??cal her be relax...i wil delete u in my mind forever and ever....dun try to disturb my friend again...Do wad u wan!!!if u bu suang ,i write u tat come scold me...i wait u!!!!
hey!!!wad u wan actually??u feel wan to play v me??come on...i challenge u !!even i knw u more clever than me,but so wad???pls don act pity again le....very geli u know?i knw u wan to say wad wad u very suffer la..dono wad urself wan actually,very fan ar...go die la...tis is the reason tat u use to hurt two girl beside u,loving u...i really dono wad ur feeling...but ur problem already hurt many ppl....u said wan to solve it...haha...wad a joke...one day then one day...the ppl tat loving u more suffer u know??but i knw u dono..so u just can keep hurt the ppl who care u and love u...erm..not dono is act dono....sorry..u force me to think u like tat...ok la...wad wait u...no nid!!!go together v ur good gf...she need u badly,love u deeply.. i can feel it...but pls behave urself...in my mind ,u still my friend ...good luck on u and ur gf....bye.....
haiz...finally school reopen le...scare to go school,i knw still got many obstacles i need to face it..tis is why i don wan to face so many ppl...many ppl gave me many comment....i got hear it..i knw...they are for my own good...they love me much...don wan to see me get hurt again..many of my friend knw my thing but they din ask me at all..i knw they don wish me to think back again...but....my heart??haha....someone keep make me laugh,make me happy..thx....i cant say out tis word in front u all bcs i really dono how to say it out....so i choose to write at here...haha...today MH come ask me wad happen on me?/wah...he also knw it...died!!!i m sure many ppl already knw my thing..but nvm...i think tis thing will pass soon...who r me???layyan ma...kw say de super lly ma....haha...jx boy ,win hao they say de pig yan....i knw i will be nth de....
hihi..layyan here..tis is the 1st time i post my blog at here..last night i just quarrel v my mum...i was too hot last night after she scold me..my mum wanted to slap me but my dad 阻止了..my dad call me to go tt,because my mum too hot le...after tt,i don dare to back home,finally i reached home at10.30p.m..tat time my parent was sleep dy...today..i still din talk v my mum..haiz...i really regret now..
